Healing Wrapped in Obedience

It has been a while but i am back. The first half of this year has been a roller coaster filled with some of the lowest of lows and much time has been spent searching for and hungry for what lessons God is trying to teach me this year. I have found a few so far but today i would like to share one.

The past few weeks a coworker of mine and her family have been navigating a devastating situation, and i have spent many moments in prayer for them. One night as i was praying i felt God place a tangible action for them upon my heart, and spent some time wrestling with rather it may actually be helpful or if it was really God that had placed it upon my heart. A few days later i did what i felt Him calling me to do and as i did it i felt Him place a question on my heart, what if the healing and restoration they need right now is attached to your obedience rather than your prayers. At that very moment i did not have much time to process the question but that night i thought, God is teaching me something big.

I do not love taking the lead while in a group situation but i prefer to have control over my own situation, and this mindset has caused me to struggle majorly with obedience to God at points. What if I end up wishing i had that money I felt God calling me to give at the end of the month when the bills are due, what if the step i feel God calling me to take leads me out of whats comfortable and into the unknown and i have no clue what i am doing, and what if i pray for someone and the healing does not come, are some of the many questions that have went through my mind throughout the years when called to obedience. In the moment that i felt God pose the question on my heart i could not help but want to know more.

As i pondered the question many stories from the Bible came to mind. what would have happened if the women with the issue of blood would not have touched the hem of Jesuses garment (Matthew 9: 20-22), what of the friends of the paralyzed man saw the crowded house and decided there was no way in (Luke 5:18-20), or what would have happened if the lepord men that jesus sent to the priest and they were healed on the way did not go to the priest as commanded (Luke 17:11-19).

You see many times we beg and plead with God for healing, restoration and for our prayers to be answered but how many times do we stop and listen. Tonight i challenge you not to stop praying but to add on listening for what the Lord may have to say about the situation you are praying for. I do not know yet if my coworkers family situation has changed or if it will turn out the way we are hoping and praying but I choose to be obedient to what I feel God telling me my part is and pray someone else will learn from the lesson I have learned.